Clive wearing has one of the worst cases of Amnesia in the world I know it's like we did now day and night the same blank no difference between dreams or anything like that no Senses at all the brain has been totally inactive no dreams and no thoughts of any kind whatever

Clive was a renowned conductor living in London when he was struck down by a virus in 1985 parts of his brain were completely destroyed including his memory however his ability to play music is unaffected

Clive now has islands of memory just as we can ride a bike or drive a car without remembering how we were taught Clive can play and respond to music because his innate musical abilities are still there and weren't totally destroyed by the virus

Deborah visits Clive on average once a month what sort of man is he passionate very loving funny very very comical and he's very very self-facing you know he doesn't want to be a nuisance to anyone

Clive's descent into brain damage came frighteningly quickly one week in March 1985 when he came home from work looking flushed and feverish on Saturday his headache started by Tuesday he was no better and he hadn't slept

Clive keeps a diary every day and has done for 20 years in an effort to make sense of his life he writes multiple entries recording his last conscious moment he would look at his watch to see what time was this momentous event occurring of first Consciousness

Clive became ill and hospitalized only 18 months after marrying Deborah 3 years after the virus attacked his brain The Strain on their lives was beginning to show it's like being a wife and Widow simultaneously

Deborah had to make a choice whether to remain in America and apply for permanent residency and a green card she returned to the UK drawn back to Clive she settled in Nottingham working for the brain injury charity Headway Deborah had come full circle

I knew you were come I was just going around in ever decreasing circles but it was the same it was just more of the same I'd reached really the end of my tether and I rang a friend and I asked her to pray for me

remarkably Clive can still recall details from his childhood numbers embedded in his memory before he became ill

things I used to do with my father um always revolved around his work it was we'd be either going to see going to places such as the British museum for his research or we'd be going to concert venues or recording venues

and I we used to take the children to see him but he used to get very aggressive he was very angry you know there was one occasion when I went to see him on my own and he he just when I said who I was he he attacked me almost

next I would you tonic I think with a cigarette and then of course waiting for time to elude and disappear and her arrival

there are 20 some muscles on each side of the face so many many possibilities of expression in the smile some people say you smile with your eyes and this is true because with this minute changes on the wrinkles maybe have a soft smile or a big laugh and so we use the face all the time